Lack of Posts + Daddy

Hi hi everyone !

I'm so sorry for the lack of post but I've just been running around a lot lately, on the weekend it was my bf's birthday, then I found out my dad is sick (he's in Jakarta) and in hospital so I've been pretty upset and been worrying my butt off and crying and stuff.. Just haven't really had the time to play with make up, I've been looking like a DOG lately! My dad is doing better but he is still in hospital so I've just been praying and praying that he will get better enough to come here for Christmas because that is all I want, just to see him and give him a hug and to tell him that I love him.

I haven't had the best of relationships with my dad, my parents are divorced and he was absent a lot when I was younger but when I got older I started to talk to him more, and as much as I hated him for not being there, for HER being around him and not letting me talk to him sometimes, at the end of the day, he is my dad and I love him dearly no matter what. Just hearing he was in hospital broke my heart, I couldn't stop crying and I was so worried that I wasn't just there with him (he didn't want me to come home, because he was so convinced he was fine), but it also made me realized how much he meant to me. I'm a worrier and I have negative thoughts sometimes which I have block and shoo away from my head, but I really thought I'd lose him and I really wouldn't be able to cope to have lost him and not mend my relationship with him. This is why I've been calling him everyday, if not call then at least an sms, just so he knows I'm thinking about him because I do... A lot more than he thinks....

Just please don't take your family for granted, I will never do that again, I have learnt so much the past few days, from forgiveness, love, and just to get over my own stubborn-ness it's unbelievable...

I will be back posting probably next week or earlier but just know I am thinking of all you girls :D I am still reading your blogs religiously and leaving comments :) If I could just ask for one thing from you guys, just please pray that my daddy gets better soon... I just want to see him out of the hospital and to come here to celebrate Christmas with us... It would mean the world to me... :)

P.S: Oh by the way! Thank you all so much for helping with find my CS HD Foundation shade! I think I will be getting the ST-04 :D BIG BIG thank you and hugs to you all! :D